Trying to wrap my mind around what this means for me right now: "The person who lives in right relationship with God does it by embracing what God arranges for him. Doing things for God is the opposite of entering into what God does for you." - Galatians 3:11


"Serve one another in love; that's how freedom grows." Gal. 5:13


5:16-18 "My counsel is this: Live freely, animated and motivated by God's Spirit. Then you won't feed the compulsions of selfishness. For there is a root of sinful self-interest in us that is at odds with a free spirit, just as the free spirit is incompatible with selfishness. These two ways of life are antithetical, so that you cannot live at times one way and at times another way according to how you feel on any given day. Why don't you choose to be led by the Spirit and so escape the erratic compulsions of a law-dominated existence?

 ^19-21It is obvious what kind of life develops out of trying to get your own way all the time: repetitive, loveless, cheap sex; a stinking accumulation of mental and emotional garbage; frenzied and joyless grabs for happiness; trinket gods; magic-show religion; paranoid loneliness; cutthroat competition; all-consuming-yet-never-satisfied wants; a brutal temper; an impotence to love or be loved; divided homes and divided lives; small-minded and lopsided pursuits; the vicious habit of depersonalizing everyone into a rival; uncontrolled and uncontrollable addictions; ugly parodies of community. I could go on.

   This isn't the first time I have warned you, you know. If you use your freedom this way, you will not inherit God's kingdom.

 ^22-23But what happens when we live God's way? He brings gifts into our lives, much the same way that fruit appears in an orchard—things like affection for others, exuberance about life, serenity. We develop a willingness to stick with things, a sense of compassion in the heart, and a conviction that a basic holiness permeates things and people. We find ourselves involved in loyal commitments, not needing to force our way in life, able to marshal and direct our energies wisely.

^25-26Since this is the kind of life we have chosen, the life of the Spirit, let us make sure that we do not just hold it as an idea in our heads or a sentiment in our hearts, but work out its implications in every detail of our lives. That means we will not compare ourselves with each other as if one of us were better and another worse. We have far more interesting things to do with our lives. Each of us is an original."

"A poet is somebody who feels, and who expresses his feelings through words. This may sound easy. It isn't. . . The moment you feel, you're nobody-but-yourself - in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else - means to fight he hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting. . . . If, at the end of your first ten or fifteen years of fighting and working and feeling, you find you've written one line of one poem, you'll be very lucky indeed. . . . Does this sound dismal? It isn't. It's the most wonderful life on earth."
- e. e. cummings

The clock holds not enough hours
in its day for the exploit of
this life as we choose to have it,
so we pilfer from the night spell
and become accustomed warmly
to little sleep where dreams are far
more vivid - trembling in their
ephemerality - sparkling
and waking to the cracking sun
on waves through blinds and cat whiskers
to our "dream within a dream" is
waking to your arms cocooning
and golden eyes with your always
smile, and more not enough hours.

* * *

"Sleep, that deplorable curtailment of the joy of life."

- Virginia Woolf  

an email

On my flight to San Francisco this past weekend, I asked, "Can I sit here? I really want to be around nice people right now, and you look like a nice person." My new friend was indeed a very nice person and helped me with dealings with snarky flight attendants and navigation of the BART. I just received this email from him. 


Subject: The window seat doth beckons


"Red-booted Laura-Lo,

Your fellow jet setter and city tour guide Russ here. I've gotta say, I'm quite curious how the rest of your journey through space and time went," etc. etc.


I wish everybody would start calling me Laura-Lo. 

January Drought

by Conor O'Callaghan

It needn't be tinder, this juncture of the year,
a cigarette second guessed from car to brush.

The woods' parchment is given
to cracking asunder the first puff of wind.
Yesterday a big sycamore came across First
and Hawthorne and is there yet.

The papers say it has to happen,
if just as dribs and drabs on the asbestos siding.
But tonight is buckets of stars as hard and dry as dimes.

A month's supper things stacks in the sink
Tea brews from water stoppered in the bath
and any thirst carried forward is quenched thinking of you,
piece by piece, an Xmas gift hidden
and found weeks after: the ribbon, the box.

I have reservoirs of want enough to freeze many nights over.

Spacetime Craft from Robert Frost

"And you can never be parted or swept away from one another,
once you are agreed that life is only life forever more,
together wing to wing and oar to oar."

Thank you Nicholas.